butterfly

2007-08-18T04:52:00.000-07:00

wala lang...isip p koh..aheehee

til my next post

i'm wishing i had wings. . .

xOxO

the butterfly lands here

missy,.issie..issue

2007-08-02T20:54:00.000-07:00

hai...after a looonglooooooong time... nakuh..mguupcat test na kamee bukas pero heto aku neon ngbblog...(minsan lang naman tuh ee..pgbgyan n..heehee)..kelangan ko lang ilabas ang mga thoughts n ayaw mgsettledown s utak ko..para pagkatapos ko mgrelease kahit panu makapagfocus..(my fingers are crossed d; )hindee naman sa problemado,..hahee..madamee lang naiisip ..you know thoughts here AND there...nyahaha,,.tapos after upcat periodic exams naman.. hataw talaga!!!! ,..kaya masarap mabuhay ee..(chuckles)..

warning :dramatic monologue ahead...read on if you want to..[bare wit moi ]..

nakakalungkot isipin na sadyang may mga bagay na kahit anong pagpupursige mu sa pagpapanatili ay hindee maiwasang magbago... parang sa magkakaibigan.. hindee tatagal at dadating deen ang oras na magkakagap..nagpapansinan, naguusap,nagchichikahan,nagkikita nga arawaraw iba pa rin yung alam mu na close and tight ung bond ninyo..hindee mu deen masisi cla kasi may kanyakanyang schedule..pero diba..dun nga dapat mas ngbobonding..yung parang ..hanggat may pwedeng isingit isisingit..pero bakit ganun??..(hindee ku naman pinipilit n magksamsama kamee..)pero..hindee ku na maramdaman ung mga soul sisters kuh..haii(i know vey personal n toh..pero..basta!)..hindee naman kasee pwede ung lagee nalang aku mgsschedule ng tropa day..hindee pwedeng oras oras nalang gagawa ng paraan para magkasamasama kmee..ayaw kuh deen ng pilit na pagpapapayag..maganda kung...magkakasama kasi lahat namiss at gumwa ng paraan para magkaquality time..kahit between breaks..

hindee aku nagpaparinig..hindee lang ako nagsasalita sa kanya o kanila..kasi pagod na aku..pagod na akong maging GLUE.. "GLUE this and that to that and this.."..i'm not mad for having to put up with all of that for a long while now..i'm certainly not mad at her/them..i did the gluing because i love my friends..and i don't want us to fall apart..just because we did not have time and attention for each other...

to be continued. . . (i hope not)

~xOxO~
the butterfly lands here. . .

smartroom

2007-07-18T01:46:00.001-07:00

nandito ako ngayon sa smartroom. nagttype ng para sa bullettin board. kasama si tatie, raymond, keith and jerico.. ahahaha... hmmm? ang lameeg.. sansa wag umulan.. hindi ako makakauwi.. haha...

2007-05-16T03:04:00.000-07:00

i've realized...

(. . .)

2006-12-01T00:05:00.000-08:00

haaii..kamusta naman..unang word q pagjatapos ng mhabang hindi pgppramdam.."haaii"'..grabe...wala n akong outlet...khapon kbadtrip!!grrr!!!ang kapatid kong mgaling ponagbubura mga picsa koh s comp...abababa!!!!d kinya un juskoh!!

well,,thankfuly naman mejo ntanggap koh..ang babaw daba..kalamuh jan..may ma mlalim n dahiln un..anuh?/

SECRET!!!aheehee

eniwei...i miss this soooooo much as in!!!

grabe...

ang dami n nangyare...nakakaloko...

unfortunately i don't have all the time in the world or at least all the time i would need to update this and that..so,,this is the least i could do..

haha..,,derederetso lang sigesige!!

hmm..basta type lng ako ng type..anuh b pwede ikwento??

hmm..ayun!!!nagbunutan n kmi pra sa monita monito..and guess kung cno nabunut kuh?/nyhahaha

xempre sikretong malupet...

clues nalng para masaya..

hmm..

#1i can relate to him/her?...

#2kilala kuh xa..aba xempre naman noh!?

#3mssbi kong close kmi ..hehe

#4hmm anuh p b?..pra xang stuff toy!!ooppss!!nadulas ata ako..

tsktsk..yan nalang muna..bka msabi q p ng tuluyan e..ahahaha

anuh p b ...

hmm..most of everything is back to normal...nyak!!(oh,don't mind me)

nakuh mukang appsarap ako d2 ahh..

~xOxO~

the butterfly lands here..

2006-11-17T17:24:00.000-08:00

..soo sad..haaii..wala n nga mgwas bahay..nawalan p kami ng net..huhuhu..actually nasa office ako naun ng mama koh..hehe..hahaii..aun..lungkot tuloy..d ako mkkpgnet ng regular ng mtgaltagal din..huhuhu T-T..

kya smile nalang!! ^ - ^

i answered a personality test..it's called the bigfive..i don't really know if it's reliable..but since..there's really no harm in trying and checking it out..i went for it..

unfortunately..,,i won't be able to post the questios here..coz the sie has something like a "no-copy-no-paste" code or something..

share q ung results..heehee

I'm a O53-C21-E48-A57-N43 Big Five!! ..here's the link..iof you want to check it out..la tlga kc aq mgawa e..nyhahahaha

bye for now...mgtaltgal din akong d mkkpgpost dito..huhu..

muuuaaaaahhhhmhhhhhhhuuuuuaahh!!!!

~xOxO~

the butterfly lands here...

2006-11-12T05:48:00.000-08:00

haii..mei pasok na bukas..daming nanyare..ambilis ng oras...ahhaaii..

Kung wala ka nang gustong sabihin
Wag ka nang tumingin ng ganyan
Kung bukas,ako’y kalilimutan
Sana naman ngayo’y di mo na isipin ako’y tawagan

[refrain]
At habang may panahon,
Wag na nating hintayin
Na mahalin pa
At masakit na’ng damdamin

[chorus]
Ang pag-alis ng iyong liwanag
Na gumising sa mahabang ngiti
Ika’y langit ngunit ang paglisan ay di kayanin pa
Ang pag-alis

Kung wala ka nang gustong marinig
Ako’y aalis at manahimik
Ang kahapon na nais kong limutin
Sana naman huwag nang manumbalik at bigyang pansin

ahaaii..daming naglalaro s utak q..ang kulit nga e..hahaii..ang kuyut nung kanta..
lalo n ung first stanza..

nakuh kasi..totoo aman di ba.,?pero kasalanan q din ako kasi tohng c ms. dreamer...kapal-muks para mangarap..pero hindi aq nagfeefeeling ahh..aaminin ko...umasa ako..T_T.. . .

pero dinedeny ko pa rin..kasi nasasaktan akong matagpuan ang sarili kong..alam n..basta..aun n yun..nukah daldal ko talagah ba!!grrrr!!
anggulo ko di ba...ahhaaii..pero may takbo pa rin ang buhay ko sa ngayon...parang...
...""bahala na..kung anong mangyare go!!go!!go!!""
nagpapasalamat nalang talagah ako kasi bago pa di ko mapigilan..may nangyareh n..hindi mo ko maiitindihan..nyahaha...buti ngah!!

~xOxO~
butterfly lands here...T_T. . .

read. . .

2006-11-11T04:06:00.000-08:00

i feel like a little girl having this feeling for you..it seems like an impossible dream for you to have the same feelings for me..

i'm like all those little girls waiting for you to fly by the window to kiss me goodnight... i'm like some addict fan imagining you to appear out of nowhere..i feel like a little girl dreaming that you would call my name and ask me to fly with you..to watch the stars and leave everything else behind..i feel like a silly girl hoping for something so far-fetched...

i feel like a little girl wanting to be a lady so that you would see me when i call you..i feel like a little girl believing that you exist to be there when i need you..i feel like a little girl waiting for you to notice me..

i feel like a little girl hopelessly believing. . .
i feel like a little girl painfully dreaming. . .

i feel like a little girl and it hurts me to feel like one. . .
i feel like a little girl and it breaks my heart. . . . .

i feel like a little girl and i don't want to feel like one
because being a little girl means you're impossible. . your but a dream..a fairytale...you're a fantasy...some make-believe..

because being a little girl means i will never be able to fly with you. . .

~xOxO~
butterfly lands here. .

anuh b yan..kakatawa!!

2006-11-01T20:27:00.000-08:00

ahaaiii..dpat tlgah..ttpusin q ung entry kuh n antgal ng nkpend... eh,,ayun..kina p q bloghopping..tpox mei bglang ngpawamdam..

humingi ng testi,,e adami nla.. e mhaba ung nkapend n entry..

kya ggwa nlan aq testi.. bbgyan din nman kc aq..((sana)) igue ccmulan q ..

nkkmiss mgtext.. d q p kc gngalaw phone q mula pggicng eh.. nuodf kmi sukob.. tpox..e2.. ahaahaa ..

nga pla.., pnygan n q gumla bukas..bday kc ni zon manlilibre daw.. e minsan lng nman.. kya.. buti nlng pnyagan aq.. heehee..

bbonding din kmi ni besh.. igue ggwa muna q testi..

muuaaahh!! ~xOxO~
~~the butterfly lands here. .. . .

2006-10-14T04:42:00.000-07:00

wow!it's been a long while .. anyway..my beshie just told me (2 days ago??) that she actually read my previous entries..and i'm glad that we we're finally able to talk..it's been a crazy week...

saturday..i went to my friends house and we stayed there..talked and did so much fun stuff..i was expected to be home by 1 pm but in the end extended 4 hours..and even arrived home by 6..
i thought i would get in BIG trouble..but noo..instead..i wasn't seen at all..invisible!!i've learned my lesson..

..soo many things happend..

i talked to two friends and opened up..told them how i really feel.. why is it even if you try to get close with each other again both of you still seem to have a gap.. maybe because i'm still unsure..

i was also able to talk to my beshie about what has been going on in my mind..and we are working on things..

her lovelife is not as complicated as mine..it's MORE complex..but she'll get through..

heehee..my besh!

..oohh..got to go..byee..XOXO

2006-09-30T04:41:00.000-07:00

yeeeheeeee!!!at last!!after..ahmm..what?? three days of no electricity..thank you God!!....

electricity..computer..!!at looongloooong last!!..

but i'm also thankful ..(actually..VERY!!)that those thre e days filled with
peaceful and quiet moments came..it was like having a vacation..
away from classes.,,homeworks..projects.,,

and during those three days i didnt have any signal..

which meant..i could not receive any messages,,not like i did have any load..

but it was like taking a break from the hard-to-keep-up-with happenings
that kepp going and going andgoing and going ooooooonnn
around ..

stuff i don't really bother being updated with anymore not because it's not about me..
you never really know when you ARE ,,the topic right??
but that's another thing..

it just feels bad meeting your bestfriend ..or close friends..
or friends..whoever..
specially your bestfriend..and then she tells you about something..
like..hmm..say,,chapter one..when..
chapter one is actually already done..and chapter two has actually started..

i guess i'm just tired of asking over and over and over again..
"what the heck has happened over the weekend
that i did not know

and you did not tell me even if we had all the time in the world to talk ..??"

i guess i just feel real bad about what's going on..
but i know it'll pass..it always does..heehee

..maybe i miss my best buds,,a lot alot..
though we always see each other,.
i don't feel the bond that tightanymore..
ooppss.,,
i didnt notice the time..
muuahhmuuaah

ooooH.. waahh

2006-09-24T04:38:00.000-07:00

ooooH...whaaah!!T-T..(O_o)

i actualy planned a lot this week--END!!but surprisingly..(not that,,but still)nothing happened ..like bOOOm and i'm here not where i ever expected to be---AT HOME..on the long awaited family day at school..and my role as elizabeth's voice(play for a launching) ..GONE!!..all i ever think of so i don't get too upset is that maybe it's not for me..coz i think that wont be the last play we would have..i HOPe not..

anyway...i cried a lot a lot today..,,maybe i'm just tired of keeping up...and i still can't stop myself from wondering how life would be if i stop and do nothing important..it really is something i would want to try..

and tomorrow is another day..another challenge..another test if i could keep up..

think positive ..think positive...think positive. . it is not the end...

cherish every moment.. good or bad. . cause it is something that WILL NEvER be felt,,
experienced again..
EVER..

what a first??!!

2006-09-15T04:35:00.000-07:00

..if i'm not mistaken it's my first time to blog..haha!and finally,,got some time to be doing this right now!!
anyway..it's THE fifteenth!!hapy birthday buddy!! ..though today's not really as happy as i expceted it to be..i still am because finally i got to know the truth..and i'm real glad even if the truth does hurt,...anyway..i came home later than usual..,,becuse we went to darren's house and did some serious talking..,,..we talked mostly about the class..and each other..and there i really CONFIRMED a LOT!!..it was expected so i wasn't really shocked..haha..i just hope that i cuold you know ---- change for the better..so no one would be mad or even JUSt irritated at me..even if i know that we can't really please everyone..of course i would like to be in good terms with all..haihai/..//..

...hmm..my mind is filled with so much question,,,...stuff to do,,...action pointds...and D" like right now..and with it comes the feelingS...feelings that can NEVER be exprssed by WORDS. .
.....i mean..it's like..i don't now what i'll pay attention to first...so confused...all i am sure is that..there obviously a lot going on at the moment...maybe i'll savor it..i'm sure i'll have time...